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This says it all
So it’s been two months since the surgery, and I expected that I’d get behind some with the writing, but I figured it would pick back up as I felt better.
I didn’t expect that I’d fall this far behind.
Between life, a mini-vacation (which was lovely), and, well, life, I lost track of where exactly I was with the writing and publishing. In fact, I got so lost that I floundered, to the point that the creativity spark fizzled and went kaput.
Insert freaking out about “I’ve lost that creative feeling”* and desperate attempts at recovering my creativity. Because OMG I MIGHT NEVER WRITE AGAIN.
Yes, well.
So I went back to basics. I started writing morning pages** again. I read books about creativity. I wrapped myself in guilty pleasures (you know, the usual: Jane Austen, vampire and/or werewolf romance books, historical scifi-fantasy-romance TV, kid action-adventure novels, space operas, ). I reminded myself that healing takes the time it takes, and that whenever I have tried to force something to happen, the results were Never Good.
Essentially, I journaled, I read, I immersed myself in fun, silly entertainment.
Then I saw a post by Dean Wesley Smith about his process of finding story titles and then writing the story. I gave it a shot, and just finished a 3,200 word story.
Then I saw a post by Chuck Wendig with another flash fiction challenge to write a story mashing up two randomly chosen genres***, and I got started on another story.
With a little momentum behind me, I went back to the publishing and tried to figure out where I left off. Oh right, review the websites with the book and make sure everything looked okay. Which it should, since I have been over this book a zillion times by now.
On the preview, IN THE FIRST SENTENCE OF THE FIRST STORY, right there in front of me, was a spelling error.
On the freaking preview.
<face palm>
So back to the ebook mines. I fixed the problem, finding other minor problems as well, and then uploaded the corrected files. And now I wait for the sites to process and approve them. Which means more time to wait.
It’s progress, I think. Just very very slow, 2 steps-forward-1-step-back progress (i.e. the new normal).
Hopefully this just means a week or so delay, and then I can post links to the book and get on with my publishing life.
Ugh.
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*It’s funnier to me if I say it to the tune of “You’ve lost that loving feeling”.
**See Julia Cameron’s classic “The Artist’s Way” for more info.
***I <3 these challenges. They are brilliantly inspirational.
Terri Wortman
Good to see you back!… And finding your wickedly entertaining edge.
Andi
What a compliment! And thank you—it’s good to be back.